My Intervention Today

I had lunch with Jen and U today at Olive Garden. We had their yummy all you can eat salad, soup and breadsticks. I was starving and ate way too much, but it was good!

At lunch, U started talking to me about B and our upcoming wedding. She says that the whole group of us "karaoke sluts" has been talking about me and the wedding. She says that they are worried that I am marrying B too soon and that I should spend some time alone. I can certainly understand their concern, but on the other hand I have to think that they don't have the whole picture.

My marriage to Jabba has been over (other than on paper) for at least 5 years. I am not proud to say that I have dated plenty and experienced plenty of life in that time period. When I met B I wasn't looking for a mate, a date or a buddy. He came into my life at a time when I had given up and decided to be alone. This is partly how I know that I don't "need" a man in my life to be complete - I do just truly love and adore him. We have been seeing each other since March 22nd, 2008 which is almost a year now. I feel very sure and comfortable with our relationship and I feel that he is my soulmate - the person that I have been waiting for my whole life. If I didn't need medical insurance so desperately, we would both be comfortable with waiting, but because I need that, B wants to get married. I think that's a good enough reason, and seeing that I know he is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with, it seems reasonable.

I really respect the words of my good friends, so I am taking this to heart. I will definitely be giving this whole thing some more thought. I guess I was just a little surprised that they had all been talking about this. Only rarely do any of them see B outside of the Pheasant Palace where I work. They don't really know him at all and they can't have much of an idea about B and I feel about each other. I am hoping that as they get to know B better and see us together more they will realize how right this is. B works such crappy hours that he isn't around to do stuff with the rest of the group very often.

The main thing to me is that I am indeed SURE of what we have and how we feel about each other. The last thing I want is one more failed marriage. I am going to give this some serious thought.