A few weeks ago, my oldest son Joshua told me that he had some worries. He and I are very close, as I am with all of my kids, and I sat him down to talk. He told me that a girl he had slept with months ago was pregnant and claiming that the baby was his. She had a boyfriend that was hoping to be the father, but she was sure it was Joshua's baby. I didn't worry about it too much - the odds were in his favor, right?
Well, on March 25th, Hunter Lee was born. He is beautiful, and paternity tests show that he is not the child of her boyfriend. When Joshua told me, I was working as the karaoke dj at the Pheasant Palace like I do every friday and saturday night. I had one helluva time not crying HARD after he left. I just kept thinking that I now am a Grandmother and I will never see this little boy... The mother has decided to move to Georgia with her boyfriend who wants to raise the baby as his own without any contact from Joshua. As a matter of fact, they are moving at the end of this month!
I've been really struggling with this whole thing... I'm a Grandma, and yet I'm not. My heart aches and I want so badly to see him, hold him, just one time! Joshua is thinking about whether or not to fight for parental rights, but his income isn't going to allow him to fight very hard or long.
I feel like I have gained so much and lost so much in one fell swoop. I don't know how to work through this really, and it hurts so much... :(
4 comments:
Oh my, what a beautiful baby! I'd be struggling with that reality too. :-(
Wow...you know, though, as the father, he has his rights. whatever happens, good luck to you, and congrats
Geez. I really hope it all works out for the best. He's precious.
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